Archive for June, 2010

Stress

Lately I have been stressed. In the past 5 years I have experienced many different kinds of stress. Law school stress, moving stress, relationship stress, unemployment stress. This is a pretty new one. Work stress.

One would not generally describe where I work to be a high stress environment. We are a non-profit and focus a lot on mentoring, teaching and outreach. I only have a few of my own cases and I go to court one day a week. Lately even this has been too much for me. I feel like everything I do is wrong (which is not something you are supposed to admit in my field) and when I go to court I feel like I am on the edge. On the edge of making the wrong decisions and being booted out as a fraud. Looking around me I am not convinced everybody else does not feel the same way but they are all faking confidence. Do not show fear or hide your fear with anger seems to be the lawyer way.

This does not work for me. I want to be good at what I am doing. I want to always make the right decision. I want people to listen to me when I do have confidence in a decision! And I never want to get to the point where I am angry.

Maybe I am in the wrong field.

I think this is all part of starting a new career. Maybe the unknown is what keeps it interesting. But there are many days when all I want to do is go back to lab where there are calculated results and very few surprises.

New page

Check out my new page, Reading in the Basement!  Here I will keep track of all the books I read, even the embarrassing stupid ones that I hide while I ride the T.  I will add some mini-reviews to some but if you are wondering what I thought of a particular one go ahead and ask.

Edit:  I forgot to link to the page.  There is also a link on the right column.

Book Break

I am taking a break from all the Costa Rica boring talk to talk about books!  I am trying to have a better attitude in the morning by being grateful about things in my life.  My walk to work yesterday went like this:

“I really do not want to go to work.  I have too many problems that I do not know how to solve and I just want to go home and make coffeecake”

“Why are you complaining?  Today is going to be a great day and here are the reasons why.”

“You got so into your book on the way to work you almost missed your stop.  You like the people you work with.  When work is over you get to read more of your great book on the T.  After work you are going to make it to step class at the gym which will make you feel great and less guilty about all the crap you ate this weekend.  After the gym you can go to the library and get more books!  After dinner you can read your book.”

As you can see, most of the excitement in my day revolves around books.   If I do not have a good book to read, everything is a little bit more gray.

Here are some books I’ve read recently.

The Story of Edgar Sawtelle: A Novel (P.S.)
was a long and intense read.  It is not only about dogs which is what I thought it was when Oprah first started talking about it.  I am still not sure if I liked the book but I still think about it, so I guess that is something.

Half Broke Horses: A True-Life Novel
 Jeannette Walls also wrote The Glass Castle which is about her life growing up as her family wanders the country.  This book, Half-Broke Horses, is about her grandmother who was a tough rancher and an overall tough lady.  Pretty good and inspiring book.

Her Fearful Symmetry: A Novel
Audrey Niffenegger wrote The Time Traveler’s Wife.  This book is very different but still has some other-wordly parts.  It was nowhere near as addicting as The Time Traveler’s Wife but still worth reading.  Especially if you like ghosts…

The Imperfectionists: A Novel
I had to actually double check to make sure I read this book because I don’t remember it!  This book is about a newspaper in Rome that is going downhill.  Each chapter describes a different writer at the newspaper.  Cool concept but sort of subdued.  I did not really care about any of the people and obviously the book did not stick with me!

And the book that I could not stop reading on the T was When You Reach Me
which is technically a young adult book but it was so good!  Thanks bro for the recommendation.  It mixes a little science fiction with just plain cuteness.  I loved it.

My pile is getting very low so if anybody has any summer suggestions please send them along!  Need.  More.  Books!

Costa Rica Finale

Manuel Antonio National Park has a few beaches inside that all the guide books promised were worth hanging around at.  The books were right.  There were no facilities or people renting you chairs and surfing lessons.  We first walked down to a small beach that was a little wavy for swimming but still beautiful.We saw that water and then the heat rash all over my body and decided it was time to get in that water!  It was seriously hot that day.  We went to the bigger beach, found a place in the shade and jumped in the water!

The water was amazing but I have always been a little scared of the ocean.  There was a pretty large undertow there so I was scared to go out very far but it still felt nice.  We sat there all afternoon (in the shade) and ate bananas, mangos and plantain chips.  Oh the lime and salt plantain chips!  So delicious.  At one point a woman came up to us with her camera like she was about to take a picture of us.  I couldn’t figure out what we were doing that was  so interesting until I looked back and saw a raccoon trying to steal our mango!  This crazy tourist was just going to let the raccoon attack so she could get her picture.  Luckily we saved the mango and chased off the vermin (the raccoon and the tourist).

The tide started to come in pretty quickly and after watching a few other couples get ALL their stuff soaked we decided to get out of there.  On our way out we saw this sign:

Right after we saw that sign I heard things fall from the trees.  We looked up and saw monkeys everywhere!  We were surrounded…and they were throwing what I can only assume was shit at us.  After trying to snap a picture we ran out of the park.

At the park exit we ran into some men with boats.  They were trying to get us to pay them for a ride out of the park because the tide had come in making the exit a little wet.  Like the naive tourists we are we got in and paid our dollar to get across while the guys behind us walked over in the pool…which turned out to be only calf deep.  Oops!  Another scam.

A few colones shorter we went back to the safety of our beautiful hotel pool, a few fruity cocktails and the sunset.

The next day was our last full day in Costa Rica and we had to get back to San Jose.  Our shuttle didn’t leave until 1pm so we decided to walk down to the beach from the hotel.  It was supposed to be about a 10 minute walk but quite steep.  We made it down and walked along the beach soaking up a little more heat and sun.  When we were putting our shoes back on to go up the hill we saw a young woman running out of the ocean yelling “help!”  Not what you want to hear at the ocean.  She sobbed while explaining that her husband had been swept up in the undertow and he had not come back up.  If any of you know me, I am not cool, calm or collected in moments like this.  Frenchie went running towards the water which was freaking me out and I started trying to communicate to a hotel dude on the beach that we needed help.  Somehow my amazing Spanish was not quite getting the message across and luckily there were others around to explain the situation in Spanish.  Meanwhile Frenchie was using his keen eyes to look for the “body” and there were two other guys swimming around looking as well.  At this point the wife has completely lost it and is mumbling about her husband while sobbing on the sand.  My heart broke into a tiny million pieces for her.  So scary!

Finally we spotted somebody swimming out past the breaking waves and making his way towards the shore.  The wife ran up to the beach and Frenchie went to her and showed her that he was still swimming.  As the two helpers started pulling the husband out of the water the wife asked Frenchie, “is that my husband?”

Frenchie says, “you tell me! I have never met your husband”

“I don’t have my glasses, I can’t see!”

“Well, two people went in and three are coming out, that is probably your husband.”

Such a smartass!

A skinny white guy comes stumbling out of the ocean and that is when the help finally arrives.  This is also when some other beachgoer local tells me that two people died the week before in this spot.  Awesome.  Time to go.

We huffed ourselves back up to the hotel and went straight to the pool.  Nothing has ever felt so good!  We were seriously hot at this point and a little emotionally drained.

It was sad to say goodbye to that pool but we had to get back to San Jose to catch our flight the next day.  We chose another hotel recommended to us near the airport.  It was a beautiful bed and breakfast with an amazing garden (and 3 giant dogs) called Pura Vida Hotel.

One more post to come…

Off to the Beach

After a spending a day in the clouds we decided to take it easy for the evening.  Our hotel had such a beautiful view we decided to start happy hour a little early and watch the sunset.  

After a few drinks we decided to head to a restaurant outside the hotel that I had read about in the guide.  Monteverde is a tiny town so pretty much all the restaurants are in the guide.  Sofia’s was Fodor’s choice.  The food was nuevo latin style and was really good!  Plus there was tres leches cake for dessert so I was in heaven.

The next morning we were being picked up at 8:30 to head to our next destination…the beach!  After a stop to switch vans in Jaco, which was a sort of trashy looking beach town, we made it to our hotel, La Mariposa, around 12:30.  It was a beautiful hotel with an even more beautiful pool and view.

Here is the view from our room.

The first day we went down to the town beach and had lunch and walked around.  There were a lot of locals bugging us to buy crap, rent chairs, drink here etc.  It was kind of annoying.  We pretty quickly went back to the hotel and went to the pool.  The pool was awesome.

Here I am, walking in…

Swimming in…

Swimming around…

and the view from the pool was beautiful

Overall, it was an amazing pool.  Our friends had recommended this hotel to us, I think mostly based on the coolness of the pool.  And boy, were they right.

After watching the sunset by the pool we had dinner at the hotel and called it a night.  The heat was sort of exhausting there so we were kind of boring.

The next morning we had breakfast on the patio overlooking the ocean and planned our day.  Manuel Antonio National Park was right down the road so we took the hotel shuttle to the park.  Once again we had tons of people bothering us to be our guide, sell us water (not a bad idea) and other crap.  We decided to skip the guide this time because we were a little guided out.  That turned out to be a fine choice because there were so many guides along the trail that we could just look where they were looking to see the animals.  Also, the park is full of animals so you didn’t need to look very hard to see anything.

The first animal we saw was a sloth chilling in a tree.

Then a crazy rodent crossed our path which looked a little like a miniature ROUS.

More sloths

Isn’t he cute???!?!

Coming soon…our trip to the beach and the last day of vacation.  Stay tuned.